I sit here emptied looking forward
I sit here emptied looking forward having just released major revisions of two—five to six hundred page books: one fiction and one non-fiction.
It’s amazing how much I have learned since 2014. I tell people all the time. “I’ve learned more since I’ve retired than I did in the first 65 years.”
I feel like I’ve experienced enough to understand what I am learning. In many ways, I’m just getting started. Yes, I can honestly say that, now that I’ve turned 80. I was born on D-Day, about the time the troops hit the beaches in France. What a time to be alive, in the last generation before Yeshua comes to pick us up for the wedding!
I sit here emptied looking forward to creating something new
Since January, I’ve edited and revised three non-fiction, and nineteen fiction books. My existing output is in the best shape I’m capable of producing now.
But like most creative people, I’ve gotten to the place where all I can see are the weaknesses of what I’ve done. So, I’m seeking the Lord for His advice on what to do next.
The main thing I’ve learned is that my books are nothing without the anointing of the Lord. I’m not capable of producing transformative, easy to read, useful books without the power of the Holy Spirit. I’ve found that fiction is the place where I can do that. Non-fiction is too focused upon narrow niches, and gets cluttered up with process. That’s true for my technical books on creation, design, and production—as well as my non-fiction Biblical teaching books.
I’m just starting to develop my voice
The Lord’s been showing me my flaws—it’s been good. I’m expecting to rejoin society and social interactions fairly soon. Hopefully, I can do that better now. I’ve enjoyed the cloistered hermit persona. It’s been strange being single again. The Lord has truly helped me sort things out—discover who I am and what He created me to be. He’s been amazing. We’ve grown much closer. That’s the best thing that ever happened to me.