I hadn’t even recognized his assault, the creep seemed so small and innocuous—almost kinda cute. But he is a nasty one. And it took that level of horrific disaster for the Lord to get my attention. The Lord’s input was just simple stuff, added over the top of the cost of living is nearly triple what it was in New Mexico, with a little, subtle postscript, “You’ve got to get out of debt”. Or try this one, “You don’t need income or a job, you need Me.” “Oh, by the way, you’re now the househusband.” By then, your head’s a snappin’.
Boy, it has taken a long time to realize the truth of “rejoice in your suffering“. I’m finally coming to understand, gut level, that these are the times He uses to purify, refine, and cleanse. These are also when the Lord is the closest. This is where I’m under His most tender care.
I’m starting to come out from the most recent session. As I mentioned on the page announcing this new outreach, it’s been ten years long this time, and I’m probably not done yet. It’s disgusting to learn you are a slow learner.
I’ve learned things precious, but most importantly I’ve come to know Jesus much better. I’ve always doubted His love. Stupid, I know, but there are reasons…… right? But He has proved Himself over and over, patient, funny, always creative, a joy to know and to love.
Watch out! Here He comes!
I’m just following Him as close as I can. I’m expecting a blaze of His glory through this burnt out hulk.